Cut, Pass, Love

Growing up, one of the toughest and scariest moments of my life was when I heard that my mom was diagnosed with cancer. I was quite young, so I was never given all the details. We were obviously told that she’s going to be fine, it’s not serious and all that (but yes, it was quite serious).

I have such vivid memories of the night before she was going to be admitted to the hospital. My brother and I were shit scared but we asked each other not to worry. We said our goodnights, switched off the lights and got into bed. Then both of us went under the blanket and cried the entire night. We didn’t tell each other that we were crying, because we wanted to be strong for each other, but it was obvious. 

My mom entered the room after a while to check on us, and she realized what was happening. She hugged us, patted our heads, and started crying too.

This was the most difficult time in my life, and I’m glad it’s over. I don’t know why I remember that night so vividly, but I don’t remember the day my mom was declared cancer-free. Maybe cause it’s never really over? There are still chances of getting it back, right? She still does multiple checkups every year to make sure she’s cancer-free.

For me, cancer is the scariest. It’s always detected a little too late and it comes out of nowhere. My husband’s aunt passed away recently because of cancer. She was such an amazing person, so jolly and energetic all the time! But suddenly she was diagnosed with cancer, and in a few months she passed away. It just changes your life (and everyone around you) so quickly, it’s the worst!

Recently, I chopped off a little over 10 inches of my hair and donated it to an organization called Children With Hair Loss, a non-profit organization that provides human hair replacements at no cost to children and young adults facing hair loss due to Cancer treatments, Alopecia, Trichotillomania, Burns, etc. I always wanted to show my support, try to be there for people who are going through what I went through. This hair donation was just a small step towards it and I hope to keep going forward.